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Where I am a Year Later

It has been about sixteen months since I have posted on this lovely blog. I have been very busy with school, work, and trying (but failing) to have a social life. So much has changed since I have been here, some being bad things that have happened to me, and some being good things. I do not know where to start for this post or even why I am writing. I guess maybe it is because in twenty-four days I will be turning twenty-one, and it got me thinking how I have not done a lot of stuff for me, or if I have done stuff for me it was for selfish reasons. I realized this past week I have a lot of growing up to do. I need to change for the better and start having faith and ambition in myself.

If you ask any friend of mine their first impression of me, you will get one of two answers. One answer being, she has chronic bitch face, but I promise you she is one of the sweetest people you will ever meet…and a honest bitch. The second answer being, she is a hard person to “read” at first, but when you turn past the cover you will learn she has a lot of personality and sass. So I guess you could say it is a hit or miss with me. I will always remember a time during my sophomore year of college, I was at a party doing what I do best which is dancing and drinking wine. I made a new friend that night. This friend was watching me dance, he grabbed my hand and helped me off the table I was dancing on. He then began to tell me how he can always “read” someone and that he was the first person he could not figure out. He said I had some type of mystery to me that he did not want to solve. That is not the first time I have had that exact conversation. I guess there is something people will never know about me, not even myself. I feel as if sometimes I have to act a certain way to impress people, but I am done trying to impress people, I am done trying to get on someones good side, and I am done trying to make an effort for people who will not meet me half way. Once I realized that I should worry about myself first, I got scared about what the future held, but little did I know that once I made this change, God took away all the toxic people in my life and opened many doors for me.

This whole week I have been praying a lot. I am not a religious person whatsoever, so this was outside my comfort zone. I left Catholic school the middle of my ninth grade year, and since then I have maybe been to church five times. I just do not care for the judgmental people I see at my church and all the nasty mean drama they start outside of Gods house. I prayed for a lot of things. Some being a cure for my brothers disease, financial stability, for me to stop being selfish, my grandparents living the rest of their lives stress free and to be healthy, and to graduate college. It makes me sick to my stomach how selfish I can be. I sometimes think the world revolves around me and no one else. I grew up the first ten years of my life being an only child and to top it all off my grandfather spoiled me rotten. Anything I wanted I got. I did not know then and sometimes even now how easy I had/have it. I took advantage of my grandparents when I should not have. I covered it up good though, I had them wrapped around my finger. All my grandparents saw was this innocent little girl with pig tails that did no wrong. I am done with that, it is embarrassing that it took twenty years to see this. During this time I am getting closer to God and I know he is going to help me get off this path and to start seeing past my selfishness. My family would lay down their lives for me, and I want them to know I would do the same for them, but I do not think they know that based on my actions. By gradating college and going out into the real world on my own, I hope to make my family proud and hopefully get a rude awakening of what it is like to be on my own. All I want is to make them proud, and if I can do that, that is all that matters to me.

My family thinks I have grown up so much since I started college and got into a serious relationship. I guess a little bit of that is true. Yes, college has changed me for the better. In fact,  I do not even know that girl in high school is anymore, or the little girl who would run off the school bus in elementary school to hug her grandmother that would wait for me by the stop sign. That girl was full of innocence and imagination. All I have left is my imagination, the innocence of me has been gone for a while and is a stranger to me. My boyfriend has made me see things in myself that I did not know even existed. He sees me for who I am and knows every single flaw about me, and still loves me for me, not the girl I pretend I am for the world to see. He knows how hard I am on myself and knows how I do not have any faith in myself. He has so much faith in me, it makes me so lucky and blessed to have him in my life. He has taught me patience and how to love all over again. I never thought I could love someone so much.

I do believe God sent me here to write what has been on my mind this whole year, and knew that this was my best outlet, but part of me still does not know why I am writing. Maybe it is the wine in me that is helping me tell you all of this, or maybe that I knew that this needed to be said. I have a lot to figure out about myself and where I am in life, because right now I do not know anymore. I thought I had my life figured out, or at least that is what I told people.

“Drunk words are sober thoughts” -Unknown

Love always,



25 Things I learned My Freshman Year of College

Well that’s all , folks! I am officially done with my freshman year of college. I have literally had the best year of my life and I would not change the memories for anything. I learned so many things about myself and I have a whole new appreciation for everything. It is crazy how fast time can fly when you are having so much fun. Here are twenty-five things that I think every college freshman should know…

1. Your new sense of freedom.

Yes, freedom is one of the first things we get when our parents drop us off on the front steps of college. It is exciting yet terrifying, it is okay to be scared. The first thing you will probably do with your freedom is walk to a Waffle House, or go to Walmart at midnight. You rebellious little adult!

2. You will meet so many different types of people.

Wait, you mean there are people more weird than you? Yes. A lot of people actually…meeting new people and leaning things about them is one of the fun things about college. No one wants to go through their day with the same routine, go meet someone new, and who knows…you might make a friend out of it!

3. Your new friends are right around the corner…or across the country.

I am from the same state as my University I attend, and I really did not think my school was a school everyone from literally all over the world wanted to come too. Do you know how many Olympians I have met?! My closest friends are from all over the north and west, and I am going to miss them so much over the summer!

4. Your Professors actually want to see you succeed.

Every cookie-cutter high school teacher will tell you “Oh in college you are just a number and they don’t care if you come to class or not.” Lies. You can honestly tell that they want you to succeed and they are literally an email away. Remember, your professors are here to help you build a career and prepare you for the future.

5. Never take a day for granted.

Go out and learn. Unless it is raining…then take a skip day. As I said earlier about meeting new people, go out and do something. Enjoy this time while you are still young. This kind of freedom does not last long and it should not be wasted.

6. Where my shopaholics at?!

You will buy unnecessary items just because you feel like it..and it is cute! Oh, don’t you worry your little head…you will regret it all in a couple of days when you see your bank statement. I am not judging at all. I hit my low point each month.

7. Counting down the days till the weekend.

The weekends are what every college student lives for. Nothing is more satisfying than getting all dolled up on a Friday night, putting on your best makeup, making sure every inch of hair is perfect, and trying on at least your whole closet twice. Whether it is a girls night out, or going to a party, you always look your best and make sure you have a damn good time!

8. Snap chat is acceptable no matter where you are. 

For those of you who do not know what Snap chat is, it is an app on smart phones when you can take a picture and send it to someone for up to ten seconds. It is like texting…minus the texting. Here in college no one judges you. If you want to take a snap chat in the middle of the quad with nothing but a beer can in your hand, then be my guest. It is socially acceptable to snap your selfies and send them in public, because we all have done that at least five times today.

9. You will kiss a lot of guys.

Part of college is having fun every once and a while. Even if that means making out with the guy from the second floor who is just oh so funny and charismatic, but don’t worry you will kiss a two thinking he is a ten. Oh, if he has bad breathe…please locate yourself to the closest exit.

10. You will slap a lot of guys.

Yup, did that twice this year. Who comes up behind someone and just starts dancing provocatively? It is such a workout, and I already did my squats for the day. Ladies, have some respect for yourself!

11. Bank and overdraft fee’s

Let me just tell you…I am a professional over-drafter. I did it three times in one month. My poor banker had to sit down with  my mom and talk about my shopping addiction. If your bank statements are not filled with Taco Bell and McDonald’s each week then you are clearly doing college wrong. Just stay on the safe side and check your bank account regularly!

12.  What are you going to do with your life?

Someone posted on Twitter today saying, “We ask 18-year-olds to make huge decisions about their career and financial future, when a month ago they had to ask to go to the bathroom.”  It is okay to not know what you want to be when you grow up. College is a place to learn and experience new things. You will eventually find your passion for something even if it is not the first two or three years in college. Changing your major is not a bad thing, if anything you are doing it for the better. I changed my major by the third week in college.  You may change your major every month, or maybe everyday!

13. Feeling alone is normal.

Yes, you will make a lot of friends in college, but sometimes that little piece inside you just breaks. Being scared, alone, or crying is part of the ride. Remember, it is alright to breakdown and just let go.  College is an emotional roller coaster, but there is more ups than downs.

14. Exercise is not an option. It is a priority.

The freshmen 15 is real and do not let it sneak up on you. I got lucky and lost weight instead of gaining, but I am into those 30-day ab challenges. At my University we have a very nice Rec center and it is free to the students (the rec fee is most likely included in tuition.)  Working out is also a good thing to do while taking a break from a paper or you just want to leave your dorm! Make time and go to the gym, they have trainers, great equipment, and the guys are pretty nice to look at!

15.  Friends come and go.

All through grade school we had the same friends for years and years. Going off to college we all go our separate ways and then it is just…over. Think about it…we had these friends for years because we were all stuck with each other five days a week for eight hours. Going to college is the best thing that ever happened to us. You will lose touch with your friends from high school, but the ones that mean the most will always be in your life. Letting go is part of growing up.

16. Where’s my T-Swift love story?

You will see happy couples all around campus, and you will get the idea in your head that it will never be you. Do not compare college to Taylor Swift’s “Love Story” music video. The director got paid millions just to make her life look better than yours. Enjoy college! Your perfect match is somewhere out there!

17. Happily ever after…

However, the fairy tale in your heart is still real and alive. Just because you see a cute couple, do not give up. You never know, your Prince Charming could be right around the corner. Oh, and NEVER settle for less!

18. Be the party!

Make a fool out of yourself! Well…have your limits, but just have fun! Enjoy this time you have. In three years or so you will be out in the real world wishing you could do it all over again. I can not stress this enough! Have fun and take risks!

19. Having a “balanced” life does not exist in college.

You want good grades, enough sleep, AND a social life?! Whoa, kid. Slow your roll. You get to pick two of the three so choose wisely. I picked the good grades and social life. Buy some Garnier eye roll cream and your dark circles will blend in perfectly with your skin tone and you will fool people thinking you got a goodnight sleep!

20. Talk to strangers!

Yes, talk to a complete stranger. Start up a conversation in line at Starbucks or in the elevator you never know what kind of conversation will appear. I have had so many nice conversations with people who I never would of thought twice to talk too. There are so many interesting people with interesting stories. You will not regret it!

21. Go to class.

You will regret it by the time your final comes around. Do not rely on friends to give you notes, and some professors do not post their lectures online. Be that good student your parents have pictured in their heads.

22. Adults are just like you.

Guess what? Adults do not have their lives figured out either. Stop letting adults tell you what you should do or don’t do with your life when they are in the same boat as you. Take control of your life and remember about 99.9% of people don’t have their shit together.

23. Home is where the heart is.

You will realize that home is always going to be your favorite place to go no matter how much freedom you have, but home is just a phone call away.  Nothing beats a home cooked meal or staying in with the family watching TV.

24. Dress to impress

As in Nike shorts, big t-shirt, and shoes. The only people you have to impress is your parents with your good grades. Except on the weekends. You better go all out on the weekends!

25. Cherish the moments.

Soon your time in college will be up, and it will all be nothing but a memory. Cherish these moments and realize how blessed you are to go to college and get an opportunity not a lot of people get these days. It is all fun until it is over. Live each day to the fullest and take positive steps to your future.

Well there you have it. The end to my freshman year in a nutshell. I could not have asked for a better year and I can not believe it is over. This opportunity only comes once in a lifetime and I am so glad I had all these memories along the way.

Here’s to sophomore year!

“You didn’t need a college degree to become one of the people who knew what was really going on. If you paid attention, you could pick things up on your own.” – Jeannette Walls, The Glass Castle 

Love always,



Money, money, money

You know what sucks? The fact that everything costs money. Being in college really shows you how poor you are. I get a monthly allowance of a very generous amount. I try to spend my money wisely, but that gets hard when you are in my situation. I have three friends/family members who all have birthdays before the twelfth of April. Being the nice friend that I am, I had to get them all presents. Next, I needed a new pair of shoes. Who knew that wearing your favorite pair of sandals that are about four years old would eventually break, but these new pair of sandals look so cute on me! 

Living in a dorm means you get to eat wonderful prison…I mean dinning hall food. Let me just tell you, the soda machines no longer work. Water 24/7 gets so boring. Sometimes I would enjoy the occasional Sprite or Pepsi. Also, we have a new vegan section in my dinning all that has actually taken over all the other food. So each night for dinner I get to choose from cold flat crusted pizza, vegan nachos (yeah, that is a thing), salad with a nice brown color to it, or hamburgers that have been sitting in meat juice. So that means, I eat out. A lot. I can hardly walk into our dinning hall without my stomach crying. I spend around $35 on dinner every two weeks, but who could blame me? Next on the list is groceries. My roommate and I share a refrigerator the size of a step stool. We buy apples, yogurt, chips, dip, cookies, cleaning supplies, etc. That is about $40 on a good week. We are two teenage girls with nothing to do. We eat enough to feed a third world country in one day.  

Sometimes you need to do stuff for you. Like buying a new shirt. I wear t-shirts and athletic shorts to class, but on the weekends I like to look cute. I got a new shirt for about $20, which I so deserved! I never buy anything for me and when I do I feel bad and think about taking it back. Last, but not least…gas. Gas is around $3.45 for regular here. It takes about $70 to fill up, and I usually fill up for when I go home to visit my family. 

I do not really know why I am tell y’all all of this, but moral of the story is do not spend all of your money in a week. Your friends will so understand if you can not get them a present, buy them a cookie. College kids love food. Suck up and be a man, eat the horrid dinning hall food so you are not out $35-$50 a month. Do not buy things for yourself. It does not matter how cute the pair of shoes or shirt is. Get over it. As for groceries and gas, that is a necessity. If you do not follow these simple rules, you will end up looking at a -$25.17 bank account. Oh, and spend your money wisely!

Money never starts an idea; it is the idea that starts the money.” – W.J. Cameron

Love always,


P.S. Mom, Nonna, or Papa, if y’all are reading this..please do not kill me. A couple of dollars is greatly appreciated!

Oy Vey

Okay, so if you read in my last post, I have not been keeping up with my resolution this year about blogging monthly. Whoops. I just really need to get a lot off of my chest, and I find that this is a good outlet to let it all out. It is really hard for me to open up, but I just feel like this is how I can without being interrupted or judged. I come from an Italian family, and it is probably the most stressful thing ever. More stressful than trying to do your hair a certain way, and you finally have to suffice to a hat, or putting a meal in the microwave for five minutes and forgetting about until five hours later. Yes, it is that stressful. I am maybe lucky to go four or five days without being pulled into the drama of being in an Italian family. Whenever something goes right, in the back of my mind I just know something bad or negative is going to ruin it. Everyone in my family has a temper and is so freaking stubborn I absolutely hate it! I can not catch a break for more than a couple of seconds and I feel as if everything falls on me. I am already stressed out enough with midterms and I can not even look forward to my spring break plans because I am so stressed out about my family.

I wish I was from the Italian families you see on TV who eat dinner together and laugh about life. I have maybe experienced that twice in my life and I am nineteen. Yes, we maybe spend time on our cell phones, iPads, laptops, etc., but does anyone remember what it is like to sit down and just enjoy someones company? I have no problem saying that I am way too connected to my phone, but since moving away to school, I put my phone away and spend as much time with my family when I do go home. My family has grown so much farther apart with electronics in our lives now. I honestly feel like they use me for my knowledge on computers and phones. Yes, I am glad to help you, but don’t you want to know how school is going for me, what I did on the weekend, or if I passed that exam I spent three days studying for? My family will confront one another about their excessive time on whatever they are playing on, but it just causes so much yelling and fighting. I am done helping them figure out their electronics. You bought it, you figure it out.

I feel so hurt, and I just put on a smile to hide my pain. I can not even focus on studying right now because I am so stressed. I leave thinking everything is okay, but it isn’t. Nothing ever is and it sucks. I put up this front for my family, but inside I am breaking because our family is just slowly falling apart it seems. I wish I could snap my fingers and have this happy little family I picture in my head, but life does not work that way. I love my family, but no one wants to listen to what the other one has to say, and when they do share their feelings, they just automatically put up this wall. It is as if they come to me for advice for what they should do, or how they can talk to a certain family member. How am I suppose to know? I am still a kid. You are asking someone who wears mismatched socks and doesn’t even know what she is doing with her life yet.  

God put us with our families for a reason and it is our job to figure out why.

“Holding on is tough. Much tougher than letting go or simply quitting.” -Anonymous

Love always,



The Cliché New Year New Me Post

Okay, so when I started college I promised to post at least one post a week. Obviously I did not stick to my word. Whoops! College kinda takes over all extra activities. For my New Year’s resolution I am not going to say “I am going to be a better me” or “Blog as much as possible!” First off, when people make a resolution to be a better person, they should not wait till the new year to be a better person. You should be a better person anyways, because that is the right thing to do. Also, scientists have proven that people give up their resolutions by January 15th. Kinda shows you that no one really keeps their word.

I try to stay away from resolutions that are the cookie-cutter resolutions, but yet…I am finding myself doing one of the cookie-cutter ones. My resolution is to workout a lit more and eat healthier. I have actually been doing pretty well so far. My roommate and I are doing the lemon and honey diet. It is the diet Beyoncé did to loose weight. So why not do the diet Beyoncé did! After all, every woman wants to be Beyoncé! We have been on this diet for almost two weeks now and we are already seeing results. This diet cleanses your body. It is basically a detox drink and it tastes SO good! This semester of college I am eating so much more healthier than last semester. I cut all fatty foods from my diet. I am living off of salads and sandwiches. I ate a piece of pizza a couple of days ago and I could not even finish it. I think once you get into the process of dieting, it gets easier to say no to fatty foods. I wish I started eating healthier a long time ago. I am excited for 2014 and what it holds for me!

Now as for working out…that is the hard part. In high school I did track my freshman and junior year. My events were the 400, 4 X 4, and the 200. I am 5’9 so my legs are pretty long. During my first semester of college I ran maybe three times. I live in Alabama, so running outside in the humidity is absolutely dreadful. Going to the gym is always an option, but running on a treadmill just isn’t the same as running outside. I got some Nike 5.0 free runs which I LOVE! I started running around dusk so it is not too hot. A lap around my universities quad is about 1.5 miles and I usually run around it about three or four times.  I have started doing ab workouts and squats about six days a week, and each morning I wake up sore which is a sign that it is working!

So with all the healthy eating and working out, I am hopping to get that bikini body back by May! Oh, and as for posting on my blog every week…lets just aim for once a month right now.

“You just never give up, no matter how hard the challenges are, and observe this world with a healthy dose of criticism and don’t just follow the herd like somebody else might do.”                 – Renny Harlin

Love always,



Never Judge a Book by its Cover

I have been in college for four months now, and I have learned so much about myself.  You know the saying never judge a book by its cover?  I really took that to heart yesterday.  No one has the right to judge someone no matter what.  You don’t know their story or where they came from.  In high school I was so judgmental.  I would say mean things about people just to make myself feel better, or just to get a reaction from them.  I wish I could go back and take it all back.  I had friends in high school and no one really knew how cold and bitter I was. I was a first class bitch.  The reason I’m writing this post is to tell y’all (yes, I’m a southern belle) about what a huge eye opener I had yesterday in my American Civilization lecture.

Okay, so my college has the largest Greek life in the nation, which means the monthly fees for a sorority or a fraternity is out the roof!  Anyways, this girl in my American Civilization lecture was wearing a Delta Delta Delta (AKA Tri Delt) shirt.  Tri Delt is the most expensive sorority at my school.  It’s $10,000 a semester and that’s just for the girls who don’t live in the house.  I automatically assumed that she was a snooty little rich sorority girl who only cared about herself.  That is where I was all wrong.  

After class we accidentally bumped into each other and learned that she wasn’t the girl I mistaken her for.  She came to college on a full ride scholarship, worked her butt off working just to afford being in Tri Delt, and she is the farthest thing from a snooty little rich sorority girl.  Her parents are both teachers and she said if she didn’t get a full ride scholarship she wouldn’t even being going to school at all.  I felt so bad for my judgments I made after this conversation I had with her.

 This girl really taught me a lesson yesterday.  Don’t be so quick to make judgments about people, for all you know they might of had to work extremely hard just to get to where they are in life.  Yes, some people can be the snotty little rich sorority type, but the least you can do is give them a chance. 

“How would your life be different if…You stopped making negative judgmental assumptions about people you encounter? Let today be the day…You look for the good in everyone you meet and respect their journey.” 
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

Love always,



Real Life Horror Scene

You know the scenes in a horror film where people are on an elevator and all of the sudden it just decides to stop and break down and the mass murder shows up out of no where?  Yeah, well that happened to me two days ago…well minus the mass murder part.

 Monday night my roommate and I along with two other of our friends were on an elevator.  We were on the first floor and had to go to the fourth floor.  The doors shut and we start going up for about two seconds then boom…the lights flickered on and off and the whole elevator just completely shut off.  I couldn’t help but laugh.  You guys have to understand, bad luck is my middle name, so you learn to laugh everything off after a while.  Anyways, my friend Josh decided to pry the doors open about three inches and called for help.  Two boys who looked like they were freshman…in high school came and “helped” us by just standing there with a deer in the headlights kinda look.

 It didn’t don on us that we should press the emergency help button until 5 minutes after we had been stranded on the elevator.  Our college police department came.  I don’t know why though…what were they going to do?  Protect us so no one got on the broken down elevator?  Man, I felt so much safer knowing that a fresh outta college police officer playing candy crush on his phone was protecting me.

Sitting on an elevator for fifteen minutes really makes you grow as a person inside.  I learned that I should always go to the bathroom before getting on an elevator, bring a fan (elevators don’t believe in air conditioning), and wear sensible shoes.  It was the best fifteen minutes of my life though.  Not really…I promise my life is much more exciting, but we did have fun doing impersonations of country singers and taking pictures.

Finally, the real hero came to our rescue!  The maintenance guy.  He looked like a mix between John McCain and Santa Clause.  We can call him John Clause.  John Clause opened the door like it was no big deal, and we all ran out as if we were trapped in there for 15 days.  The oh so manly cop came up to us and asked us questions as if we all witnessed a murder or something.  I didn’t care I was just glad to have air conditioning. 

It was a great way to end my Monday night.  I probably would of freaked out if I didn’t have my roommate with me.  I would of made this post a lot more dramatic if she wasn’t, but she follows me on here so I can’t make my mass murder story until the next time I get stranded on an elevator again. 

“If you really want something, don’t be so impatient. Relax and wait for the chance of grabbing it. Remember, no matter how many times you push the elevator button, it will not come any faster, not until the right floor comes.” – Unknown Author

Love always,



Hello, College.

So it’s been a while since I have made a post on my blog, but bare with me.  Things have changed a lot since my last post.  I have graduated high school and I am now attending the college of my dreams.  I have only been in school for about three months now, but I have learned so much about myself and I couldn’t be anymore happier!  I am still getting into the swing of things here in college. The transition from high school to college is so unreal.  You’re no longer in one building with all your classes inside, you can sleep till 10 (I have so much respect for students who have eight AM’s), you can wear pajamas to class, and if you’re lucky…your campus has a Starbucks!  

College is seriously the best years of your life, but there is one downfall of my freshman year.  My dorm…oh my dorm…I am in a co-ed dorm. The first and second floor are boys and the third, fourth, and fifth floor are girls.  There are eighty girls on my floor, and we share community bathrooms.  We have eight showers and only two provide hot water.  Where I reside is the only dorm that has two-three fire drills a week…at two AM.  I am rooming with my best friend which has its ups and downs, but I did NOT want to do a random roommate.  Besides, I live on the international floor…I could of gotten matched with a girl who sacrifices Italians for dinner.  My roommate and I actually countdown the days until we get to move out of here.  There is two things though that gets me through the day living at my dorm.  One, we have the best dining hall on campus, and two, our backyard is the stadium.  

Now for the main reason for going to college, the education.  Right now my major is nursing, but I soon came to find out that nursing really isn’t my calling.  Right now my plan is to change it to management, but making a decision that changes your whole life and future isn’t that easy. It’s actually pretty terrifying thinking about it.  I love my professors, well most of them.  My English professor is a HUGE feminist and we both don’t see eye to eye on anything, and my psychology professor is a tree huger and has that “go green” image, but my American Civilization professor is amazing.  He goes so in depth about his lectures and really makes you feel as if you are in that time period.  Every Monday he says “I hope everyone had a great weekend, but if you didn’t get drunk, than obviously it sucked.” 

Last but not least, the parties.  You haven’t lived until you’ve gone to a fraternity party.  Live bands, dancing, and having fun the whole weekend!  Think about it, you go to class all week looking like you just rolled out of bed (because you did), you just want to get dressed up by the end of the week and have fun!  I have made so many friends its ridiculous!  I never want to leave college!  

“Take a limitation and turn it into an opportunity. Take an opportunity and turn it into an adventure by dreaming BIG!”           – Jo Franz

Love always,


That’s a wrap!

Today marks my last day of high school! I gotta say the past 4 years have been a VERY bumpy ride, but I wouldn’t change anything that happened. I have changed into a person I never thought I knew I could be. Just making a transition from private school to public school was a rude awakening in itself!

I have a lot of great memories from high school that I will treasure forever…like my first love, my first high school party, sneaking out, bonfires, etc. The only thing, and I mean ONLY thing I will miss about high school is my friends. I know people are always like, “we will keep in touch”, but we all know that’s never gonna happen. We all had that secret crush on that one boy or girl who we never had the guts to talk too, and now we will never know what would of happened if we just went up to them and said hello, and you’re never gonna see them again. Oh, and me missing my teachers is out of the question. They were all so negative and never had faith in me or any of my classmates.

I am proud to say that I am part of the class of 2013 at my school. We are all one big family. Whether you were a Jock, or a member on the Science Olympiad team, we all had some sort of connection to each other. I can’t believe this is all over. I woke up every morning dreading going to school, and now it’s all over. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so happy with moving on to bigger and better things, but at the same time I’m gonna miss seeing everyone’s face at school.

A week from today I will be graduating. I think that’s really when it’s gonna hit me that high school is over. We only have one day left of all the seniors being together. I know I said I hate school so much, but the people here really treat you with respect. It’s just another chapter in my life that’s ending, but I can’t wait to see what my future holds.

“You’re off to Great Places! Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting, so get on your way!” – Dr. Seuss

Love always,

Guns & Government

Have you watched the Sandy Hook Conspiracy video on YouTube? It leaves you questioning our government and what all they don’t tell us. I feel as if the government is scaring us into doing what they want to do and go by their rules. I believe that the whole Sandy Hook shooting was a hoax. I have my reasons for believing so.

One of my reasons is that the “principle” of Sandy Hook was “murdered”, when in fact, she was interviewed after the Boston Bombing as a bystander. Another reason is that before the parents got interviewed about the loss of their children, they were laughing and telling jokes. Now I’ve been in theatre for about 11 years, and right before you go on stage and you’re suppose to cry, you laugh. Laughing helps produce more tears and causes the face to turn red faster. If my child just got murdered less than 10 hours ago, I wouldn’t be laughing. Lastly, the Facebook pages for the kids deaths were all made a day before the shooting. It turns out most of the “parents” made the Facebook page. Those adults were all actors or have an acting background. In my opinion, the shooting was the governments way of showing us that we need gun control.

In today’s world we need some way to protect ourselves. We can’t all walk around with body guards and pretend everything is okay. It’s not. Guns may not be the answer, but for now it maybe the only thing we can do to protect ourselves.

I thought America was the land of the free, not the land of government controlling our minds and scaring us into putting our lives into their hands.

“Government, even in its best state, is but a necessary evil; in its worst state, an intolerable one.” -Thomas Paine

Love always,